This morning, in amidst the stories about “legitimate rape” and naked congressman, there was a piece on NPR about how in WI, we’re tired and have lost our joie de vivre. Ever since the protests and recall and, for some us, especially public school teachers, the continual slow erosion of what we can and cannot do in the jobs that we thought we took because we wanted to help people.
I think it’s true – I’m not going to remember 2012 as a particularly good year. I’ve been too busy at work, not enjoying. Not throwing parties or celebrating. Not feeding people as much as I like – it’s been slow at the dining club. I missed my mom’s yahrzeit because it was my clean out day for colonoscopy and I missed my parents’ 61st wedding anniversary – yesterday – just because. ‘Course I’ve been thinking it’s just from getting old. Or else I’m getting a cold – my throat’s sore. The last few weeks, I haven’t been doing such a hot job of cooking and blogging – take tonight – I was going to make broccoli with peanut sauce and rice, and cucumber salad, and Szechuan green beans and veggie broth. The broccoli got made, and the cucumber salad (but only used two of my four cucumbers), and, because I discovered them lurking in the vegetable drawer, I cooked and shelled the edamame that came in the CSA box for last Thursday’s class, but not the broth or the green beans, and no one ate it but me. Mark, as usual opted to not eat one of those weird stir fries with rice that I like to make. I think I’ll be stuffing it into pita for lunch the next few days – but even that’s depressing – since I am so old, I can either eat yogurt and fruit OR a sandwich for lunch – both is too much. And I don’t get to cook dinner tomorrow because it’s co-op Board meeting night – could be my last one if I don’t get re-elected, but so far no one except me is at all worried that that’s going to happen.
Must be why I’m liking reading George R. R. Martin so much – I got tired of being like 85th in line in the library hold queue for the printed book, and 110th for the ebook, and just bought Book 4 from the Apple Store – because I already bought it, I can’t see the price, and I trashed my emailed receipt, but it was either $11.99 or 14.99. Cheap for the ultimate escape to Westeros. And joie’s just perfume, anyways ….